all i need feeling peace in my heart. i thought i will feel better after a nap, but i guess it got worse. this is haunting me like almost 24/7 other than during caregroup. can't even escape when you sleep, like SLEEP. i need more people to say sweet dreams to me. i'm not getting refreshed but instead having this weird feeling, this burden :(((((((((((((((((( can't wait for friday for geo paper to be over, i'm hating geo more and more. i really can't even bring myself to open the textbook. another thing that is driving me crazy. i guess it's all hinting me to do quiet time.
humans are not treated like humans, mutual respect no longer exist.
just a few months more, I'll be out of this WHOLE misery. too many things are happening at one go, I had already escape one, but it just keep coming. I'm starting to feel really scared cause whatever I have in my brain now isn't going to bring me to my goal. I need to get rid of lots of redundant things, but I'm not strong enough to do it.
I'm going to be a happy girl today cause there's mac for breakfast and pizzahut for dinner :D
never expect i will break down another time for this subject, at home. no celebration, no reward, no words of encouragement. actually i don't care if there's celebration or reward. all i need is you telling me you're proud of me. you made me feel that whatever i do is inadequate. you never ever really bother about the positive stuff about me, i know my english is not that good. but do you have to mention it to bring me down? you don't know how hard it was to pick myself up within minutes and carry on with paper2. you don't know how overwhelmed i was a few hours ago. tears of joy was something i never had before and never thought it would ever happen to me because i just could not comprehend how to cry when you're so happy. but i did, just a few hours ago, but it seemed so long ago already. i think i will forgot how it felt like tomorrow cause this pain could cover everything.
your 'i thought you will fail' didn't help at all.
dinner @ pasta de waraku! tiff was actually surprised when the waitress brought the cake out :D she didn't even see serlin carried and brought the cake in haha. lucky she was surpirsed :D headed to cineleisure for neoprint! it has been a long time since we took. reached home around 12. lucky i saw my cousin at marsling mrt! (thank god) cause everyone was rushing me home, made me so paranoid. so he walked me home then went home. being 18 is so different. HE THINKS 12MIDNIGHT IS NOT LATE. only maybe it's just me and my world.
life revolves around school, tests & church, other than basic necessities. my body couldn't take it cause i only recharged it with 5 hours of sleep a day (but i was suspecting if it was mac & longjohn that cause it). anyway, so i had fever, flu, cough, sorethroat ONE day before chinese listening compre (which is 2 days ago). when there's fever is like 100% you will have headache. so i was so afraid i couldn't concentrate during LC. & i slept at 10pm. 10PM! it has been ages since i slept at 10. it felt so early and was feeling out cause everyone started coming online at 10.
woke up at 7.30am. still taking my time and reach polyclinic at 8. IT WAS ALREADY SO CROWDED. but not as pack as sardines yet. waited for 1hour +, watched the eclipse on teevee! they were showing india and china :O pandas in china were going 'crazy', they just roll and roll and roll hahaha.
slept until 12 then prepare to go to school. thank god headache gone, fever subside :D but on the way had very bad stomachache. almost puke. so i was late!! was surprised yet glad to see familiar faces. 6 of us in quarantine room. 5 from my class, the other one is loo haha. WE HAD TO WEAR MASK, so uncomfortable. mine was so tight, hurting my ears and it's even more troublesome when you had running nose. lucky it didn't affect much for LC. i know full marks is impossibe already cause i think the first answer should be D.
merry-go-around necklace 
